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Cameron strode thru the doorway, her mindset preceding the sound of her leg servos. “John, where are the _____ .”
“I left them under the __________ .” Cam did a stop-turn-bounce, ‘our dancing days’ thought John as he watched her pant cuffs receding, his eyes downcast in recognition of his mistake. It’s nice she doesn’t berate me for my mistakes like Mom does, Cam expects me to learn, Mom expects me to keep making mistakes.
In a sense Cameron is a tougher teacher, her unspoken trust applies more pressure to improve than unending disapproval ever could. When will my intuitions be right more often than wrong. Sometimes I’d rather leave decisions to those who never make mistakes.
The future is too big a weight at times, especially when I’m yearning to be free from all of this. Who was it that said ‘The head that wears the crown bears a heavy weight indeed’.
And yet, if I ‘give up’ and fade away into the invisible background of history, will that successfully avoid all the problems that bug me so much. It feels like ants crawling all over me sometimes, so many details all biting for my individual attention. I want to electrify my skin and boil them all away, POP.
Tho, if I could, like the Dali Lama, find that vibrational groovy-ness that all problems would be soothed by, and entice them towards my way of being in the world, would they then be a vector working with me instead of against me.
Is this how Cam approaches problems. She does becomes quieted and stilled when she is pondering a problem. I always thought it was cause of how her attention is turned inward towards her circuitry, not because she’s changing the vibration of the space surrounding her.
And what is change. Real change, when things aren’t the same anymore. What is it that transits from one event to the rest of the world, and how is that communication received.
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RE: Days of lemon juice and vinegar
By: kovilhelm,
Dec 14 2008, 6:55 AM EST
I’ve noticed specific times when things change, and like stones into a pond, the waves eventually reach all of the surface.
Maybe that’s how Cam changes me, she sends out calming waves to draw me towards her way of being in the world, and by that gentle enticement gets me to work with her, instead of against her.
But then at times she kicks-ass really fast! I wonder how she knows when to do which. Tho, even when she’s fighting, there’s a pause every now and then, like she’s reassessing the situation in terms of the opponent’s intention or position, to see if they have changed their mind or agenda.
Like the world, Cam spends more time being peaceful than violent, which is a good indication for the future. Peace is the normal condition, violence is the exception.
“How’s it going with the __________, John” greeted Sarah as she saw him on opening the door.
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